To anyone who might read this, I got more precise details of his disappearance through his sister...And this will sound a bit like a rant, now that I am rereading this whole text.
I understand this could seem somewhat morbid, so you don't have to read this. The short answer is, his death was of natural causes...But I would have rather learned it was a stupid accident, such as being hit by a car or falling down some stairs.
Anyway, let's go with this.
While they were watching TV, he stood up, did two steps and fell to the ground. He had heart attack, apparently due to thyroid problems he had been having. Her little sister tried CPR while waiting for the paramedics.
He was in coma when he arrived to the hospital and he had a second heart attack on the next day.
On Sunday March 17th, Johan,
His remains are buried somewhere, probably nearby his town in Switzerland.
For one year I have been thinking it was an accident: hit by a car, falling down somewhere. I would have never imagined it was something like this: I didn't notice he was sick the few times we chatted...Though honestly, many of these illnesses lie beneath the surface, under the skin. It is not something you will know about unless you are told about it.
The moral of this story should be to take care of yourselves, and I know it can't be easy, depending on your personal health, or what kind of health care your country is offering you. It truly saddens me, and also infuriates me, that this kind of stuff is what ultimately killed him, at a rather young age, in a developed country (note: I am not implying anything like "well, if it was in deep Africa, I would understand it", since extreme worldwide inequalities tend to piss me off. Allow me to be naive and to believe that, one day, our civilization will reach a peek where worldwide affordable health care and health knowledge will exist, and equal opportunities for everybody, but I digress...).
What a waste of talent and skills, simply because his body couldn't keep up. He was older than me, it is so strange to think now that I am the older one. I promised myself to work on the comic-book we were planing on doing (he did provide me with some valuable hints, that evolved to be great parts of the plot), or at least something else, anything. I haven't done shit.
Well, maybe if I am unable to make up anything out of my life, you guys reading this can.
And now he is dead.
He won't be coming back.
Any ideas he had, any other projects that were coming to fruition are now in the grave with him. As far as I'm concerned, any year above 30 is a luxury that he will never have.
So for those of us still around here, let's make something out of them.
He was my favorite artist and he enjoyed my art so much he asked a request from me. My favorite artist asking a request from me? And now he'll never see it. I felt like a complete dick, I wanted to rewind time to fix my error. never before did I feel so out of place, helpless, confused and miserable. I've learned a lesson from this. If I make a promise, I should be sure to follow through and not procrastinate because you never know when someone will leave you.
Guess you and I are of different opinions when it comes to the circumstances of his death. If it was an accident, it would make me feel more angry because I would have felt he was robbed. Natural causes to me is less painful in a way but still there is an unfairness to how young he died and that no one could do anything about it nor was a professional even able to diagnose the problem.
Anyway life sometimes moves in mysterious ways. Am shure there are stories out there that are special.
Still it's a bit frightning becouse you never know when your hart will fail becouse of something. One moment your feeling perfectly fine and then boom it hits you without even knowing how or why.
Now our hospitals and so on are super but i think like many we don't wonna go there becouse we don't whant to go over something that clears up after a while. Unless something is realy hurting and keep on hurting for a long period , then id go to see a doc.
Plus i also had a slight unpleasent encounter with hospitals. I know i shoulden't say oh they al suck like it but it's the human nature i guess that keeps me from going after that. I had like something ripped in my right knee when working. The boss drove me to ER, i hopped in becouse it hurt badly, registered myself in, after 15 min or so ( since i wasen't bleeding i guess ) some guy ( probably a nurse ) just looked at it saying there is nothing wrong with it. Realy nothing but looking and he could tell if i whas in pain or not... anyway went to see my house doc the same day. He at least excammined my leg and hurt badly when he twisted it and so forth. Said i sprained some muscles got a week off to recover. Still had pains in my knee week and months after that. After 9 months of pain and unease when doing certain movements i went to a diffren't hospital and had some scans. Turns out my miniscus whas snapped in my knee. Got that out and all is good now.
So you see my faith in docs and hospitals are a bit low. They are hard working people and have to take a lot of crap from other people and all but if i don't have to go i rather avoid going.
I personally am okay with hospital. My mother had to spend so much time in those that I am a bit used to.
Yea one place sucks while the other is the place to be.
It is a place to get better tough sometimes it can end up in some bad experiances.
One example.